Sooo tired April 6, 2008

We have company coming on Monday evening. We also wanted to do some room rearranging before they got here. Of course we wait until TODAY to start it all!! LOL We played musical rooms. We have a room that was once (years ago) the garage. Now it is just a very large room and the washer and dryer are in there in a closet. We were using it as part office for Dave, part laundry dump for all things dirty and part room where you put things that have no place but you don’t want to get rid of them. Oh, and there was a futon in there, that we need for company. My sewing table was in my bedroom because it gets the best light in the house (I have issues with dark rooms) and since I’m selling fabric on eBay, it’s been overtaken by 100 pounds of fabric. I could not stand it anymore. So!! Here was our solution: Futon got moved into Max’s room. While Dave’s parents are here, they’ll use his room. After they leave, Max can use it as a comfy seat to sit and read, do homework, whatever. We had to move his furniture around first but, no biggie. Next, we moved Dave’s office stuffs out of the ‘front room’ (as it’s called) and cleaned out all the crap out of the closets. We moved the girls out of their bedroom and turned the ‘front room’ into ‘the girls’ room’. Once that was done, we stopped and breathed heavy for a while. After their room was done, we moved Dave’s desk and a metal shelf unit (it’s nice, not industrial) into what used to be the girls’ bedroom. And we moved my sewing table and all things ’sewing’ into the room w/ Dave’s desk. Now, we have an ‘office’, a room that belongs to us. I think I’m going to put a sign on the door that says ‘Parints ONLY!! No cidds alowed’ and ‘Cidds have COOTEEES!!’ They’ll have to know the secret password in order to come in.

I am thrilled with this arrangement. Now, I can put all my fabric on the shelves, use the closet for storage of my sewing ’stuff’- I don’t feel crowded anymore. And I have a place for my ‘girl’ now. I bought a dress form for myself on eBay. I need to think of a name for her. I vetoed Dave’s vote for ‘Breasty LaRue’. I can’t think of what I should call her, so for now, she’s just ‘My Girl’. I love having a girl. She makes me feel a bit more like a professional seamstress! I feel like I need to make something quick-like to cover up her girly bits. Her boobies are all exposed. It’s just wrong!!

I hope to, one day, buy a second table for my sewing. One table to sew on, and to hold my laptop and printer. And one table to use for cutting out patterns. It’s very frustrating to have to constantly clean off the table in order to cut out a pattern and then turn around and put everything back on again. The table I have cost me $50 and I love it. I want to get a second one. Only problem I have is space. This room is small. We live in a 3-bedroom ranch (1600 sq ft) and the bedrooms are on the small side. I keep looking around and coming to the conclusion that my second table may very well not happen!!! I can not complain though. I know it’s a luxury to even have my ‘own’ room for sewing and such. This is the first home we’ve ever lived in that afforded me this luxury. I do love this arrangement. I’ll have to take a picture of my fabric shelves. Piled high with tons of fabric. My own little store! Love it!! Although, it occurs to me that very few people would share my joyous feelings. LOL

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I broke down and decided to refill my anti-depressants this week. For some reason I just started really falling into a depression this last week. I slept a LOT, could NOT stand the kids at all (AT ALL!!), had no motivation to do anything whatsoever. And I was really starting to feel the self-loathing coming back rather strong. Those feelings lead to thoughts of suicide for me. So, yah. Bring on the drugs!!!! I take Wellbutrin. First depression medication that I just love. Some side effects but nothing that interferes with daily life, like all the others I’ve tried over the years. My biggest complaint would be the stomach aches. Some days my stomach just hurts so bad. It kind of sucks but I deal. It’s waaay better than the severe exhaustion I dealt with on all the other meds. And it has actual good side effects. If you can believe that. One is that it can be an appetite suppressor. That is good!! Very good! And two, it can make a person actually want sex! Imagine!!! Actual desire! For actual sex! No longer muttering ‘Just hurry up and get it over with!’. LOL No, I haven’t said that since I was in my child-birthing years. And those years are waaaaaay behind me now. But it’s nice to feel, uh, amorous once in a while. So, now you know more about me than you would ever, ever want to. Ever. You’re welcome?? LOL

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I must go to bed. I have 2 more days worth of major cleaning and laundry folding ahead of me. I wanted to mention real quick though, if you want to see any of the fabric that I have for sale, just let me know. I’ll point you in the right direction. I have tons up and will be listing tons and tons more in the coming weeks. You can get good deals on very nice fabric. And I may be listing trims, books and patterns soon too.